I have known many men in my life, yes of course I am a teenager. I easily to fall in love even I don't even know who's that guy. At outside, I am a very shy girl, especially with the guy. but when it comes to social media, I am not the same people because I never shy to talked with a guy when we are chatting or messaging. *smirk* I'm so stupid when I think about it.
From there, we are starting to close and know each other. We are talking about ourselves, joking for each other and many things we did together. Yes, I am the very friendly person when it comes to social media. I like to speak a lot and one of my ability is I know how to make a joke. Lol! That's why they like to talk with me, they never being bored.
But what makes me not satisfied with myself is I easily trust people and fall to their kindness even I know they were not sincere being friend with me. They just talked with me for fun to spend their bored time with someone can make him happy. *something I did when I bored*. I am not mad when they do that to me because I do that for them too but I did not like when they pretend to like me before, with their sweet word or whatever is it and then they left me alone just like that. *wtf!*
I was the type of not even care to people, I don't care when they were sulking with me or not because I know I did not know how to persuade them back. I really don't know this. That's why when they were sulking I never sent my chat to them until they chat me again. That was me! But... when I waiting for them to chat me again, that was the bastard feeling that I can't handle with my hand or with my mouth or even with my whole body too. It always coming to bother me. I hate that thing!
I felt really mad when I think about them doing this to me! My feeling is always provoked me again and again. But I can't blame to them because this is MY MISTAKES. I was the wrong here because who told me to be really kind to the guy even YOU do not know who is he. When I thought about it again, I must change my attitude to not treat the man again. It just will hurt my feeling and I really hate when that feeling come.
So! when you want to act, better you think first or you will regret it. *smirk* especially when it comes to your feeling.
If you afraid that you never found your partner or you think you're not dishonored. You better think this first, " God has prepared a mate for you". So, to someone who is around my age like 17 to 19 better you do not very think to have a lover yet but finish your study first and then get a good job (InshaAllah), You will find someone who is good for you.*smile*.
p/s: the Short story from my experienced. *shy*
